“so you write it and then you rewrite it.
you perfect each sentence as if the tiniest error could result in tragedy.
you take great care in picking the paper you write on.
the pen you use has to be of a certain colour. an exact shade.
when you’re done with your seventh draft you decide to rewrite it once more.
just to be sure.
when you’re done and you’ve read it at least fifteen times over,
you finally feel like you’re ready.
so you place it in the most perfect envelope you can find.
paste the prettiest stamp on the top corner.
seal the envelope.
walk to the mailbox.
right before you shove it in, you rip up the letter to shreds.
you make sure its cut up so small it can no longer be pieced together.
at the end of the day it wont matter if the letter is read or not.
words that could move mountains will merely float through you.
sentences that took hours to construct will leave you unfazed.
it is indeed better this way.
you, blissfully unaware.
and me, determined to not care.”— I didn’t know you could write like this. (via theglamorouslies)
Spell your name without vowels: Btsm Your favorite number: 4, I don’t know why, it’s just always been equal to me… What color do you wear most? There’s no color in particular that I wear too often. Least favorite color?: Orange, I don’t like it too much… :/ What are you listening to: The TV in the background? :D oh and the remix of More human than human - Rob Zombie
Spell your name without vowels: Btsm Your favorite number: 4, I don’t know why, it’s just always been equal to me… What color do you wear most? There’s no color in particular that I wear too often. Least favorite color?: Orange, I don’t like it too much… :/ What are you listening to: The TV in the background? :D oh and the remix of More human than human - Rob Zombie Happy with your life right now?: Right now? I really don’t know, I’m in a very confused state of emotions. I was a few minutes ago. What is your favorite class in school?: Biology, Psychology and Debate class when do u start back at school/college?: September 19th :( Are you outgoing?: You could say so :/ Can you dance?: I’d like to believe I can, I’m pretty shy though a few shots and I’ll be dancing my ass off. I do love dancing though!
Can u tie a cherry stem with your tongue?: Never tried, it’s always looked so cool on t.v though! :D Can you whistle?: Two words; Epic. Fail. Write with both hands?: Kinda, not really, if i try really hard :D Cross your eyes?: Yuppp :D Walk with your toes curled?: I USED TO DO THAT ALL THE TIME WHEN I WAS YOUNGER!!! I thought I was the only one with that weird habit :D It was like my favorite thing to do, and to watch older people ATTEMPT to do the same and fail miserably haha. And to think I thought I was weird :D THE DO’S Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Maybe :/ Do you believe in miracles?: Yes. Do you believe in magic?: Who defines magic? Love at first sight?: Yes… weirdly, not necessarily love but this instinct. Do you believe in long-distant relationships? : I didn’t but I have no other choice but to believe in them now. I am in one now and I have to believe because I know no other way than to live loving him, wherever and to believe that one day we will find a way to be together again. Whats meant to be, will be. Do you believe in Santa?: Lol. They say all fairytales were formulated from reality so there must have been, once upon a time, a kind man who gifted people things and was modified into Santa Claus. Do you know how to swim?: I know the doggy paddle? :D Do you like roller coasters?: LOVE them. The feeling of falling, the adrenaline! AH! Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: Lol. Hell no.
THE HAVES Have you ever asked someone out?: Nope :/ Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Yup, I’m the girl, I usually get asked. Have you ever been to the ocean?: I could live by the ocean. Have you ever painted your nails? All the time :)
THE WHATS What is the temperature outside?: Around 45 degrees celcius
What radio stations do you listen to?: I don’t usually listen to the radio but if I do, it’s usually 104.4 and 104.1 or 92. something What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Abajour, this Syrian restaurant :) What was the last thing you bought?: OOOOH! MY RIVER ISLAND JEANS <3 and two new tops :D What was the last thing on TV you watched?: The Exorcist. Epic. Fail. Seriously.
Who was the last person you IM’d?: I dont even remember :| Who was the last person you took a picture of : My boyfriend and his dad :) Who was the last person you said I love you to?: My baby :D Ever really cried your heart out?: Ever cried so bad you felt your heart was in physical pain and start screaming out to God to ask him why he doesn’t listen when this is all you’re asking of him and you thought you just would not be able to stop and the feeling of not being able to stop made you cry even more hysterically? Yup. Been there. Done that. Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Next question? Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?: Yes. It’s a very vulnerable feeling but to know that friend will love you and never judge you is very comforting, it’s to risk feeling vulnerable. cried over the opposite sex?: Yeah..
Do you cry when you get an injury?: Not really, unless it’s excruciating pain that brings tears to my eyes. Do certain songs make you cry?: Yes but only if I’m in that mood.
HAPPY SECTION Are you a happy person?: You could say so :) What is your current hair color?: Brown.
CURRENTLY WEARING What shirt are you wearing?: My white boob tube. Pants: My footie pj’s Shoes?: barefoot :D Necklaces?:My whitegold necklace with a silver Allah pendant that was gifted to me :D :$ Underwear?: Piinnnkk :D IN A BOY/GIRL
Favorite eye color: Blue, only coz his are blue :) Short or long hair: I don’t mind, but short looks adorable. Height: A little taller than me, just perfect for my head to rest on his shoulder and feel his lips on my forehead or to tiptoe to kiss him and to be able to rest my head on his shoulder as we slow dance and for him not to be a midget when I wear heels :D
HAVE YOU EVER Been to jail: Nope and don’t hope to :) Mooned someone: Yup, my sister, all the time :D. Thought about suicide: Mm. Laughed so hard you cried: :D Yup, gotta love that feeling!
Cried in school: None that I remember :/ Thrown up in a store: Umm… no? Thank God. Wanted to be a model: Haha Sure, it’s every teenage girls secret dream :p Done something really stupid that you still laugh about: Too many things to remember :D Seen a dead body: Thankfully, no. Been on drugs: Nope.
“When I’m not there… do you think of me? When you’re sad and something’s bothering you… do you wish I were there to help comfort you? When you’ve had a long hard day… do you smile knowing that soon you’ll be seeing me, and everything will seem better, even if it’s just for a moment? When you lay down at night… do you look back and cherish the new memories you’ve made with me? And when you get up in the morning, does everything inside of you smile, knowing that this will be another day that we’ll be together? Because that’s how I think of you…”—(via keepcalmandbeshamazing)
“There will always be people you can’t believe you were friends with, boys you can’t believe you kissed, and people you can’t believe you lived without… people change but if you’re lucky… a certain few will change you.”—(via keepcalmandbeshamazing)
“As we grow up, we learn that the one person who wasn’t supposed to let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it’s never easier the second time around. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend, and may even fall in love with them. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry cause time is passing too fast. You’ll eventually lose someone you love. Life is short, so take too many pictures, laugh way too much, kiss way too slow, cry way too hard, and love everyone.”—(via keepcalmandbeshamazing)
“Besides the obvious difference, there was not much distinction between losing a best friend and losing a lover: it was all about intimacy. One moment, you had someone to share your biggest triumphs and fatal flaws with; the next minute, you had to keep them bottled inside. One moment, you’d start to call her to tell her a snippet of news or to vent about your awful day before realizing you did not have that right anymore; the next, you could not remember the digits of her phone number.”—(via theflightout) (via insidemyuniverse) (via nijuukyu)
I want a love that is so simple.
Make me feel special. Make me feel loved, that’s all I ask for, I don’t ask for all your time, I don’t even ask for grand gestures, I want nothing more than the small things; they’re what matters most to me. The small, tiny, stupid things and I wish, oh how I wish that they didn’t matter to me but they do. Like just the thought of spending our anniversary with me, just because you’re not going to get an opportunity to spend this day with me anytime soon, only because you are so far away. Yes, I should feel like that everyday but that day I want to make a big deal because I won’t be able to once you’re gone again. Just the thought that you do. I am tired of caring and I am tired of wanting you to care.